PAXbaby – Wednesday PROMO


PROMO #2 – In honor of our amazing adoption story and happily ever after fairy tale come true, would like to celebrate our Rose’s birthday with you in a very special way!

Place a $250+ order today and receive a FREE Vice Versa woven wrap. Vice Versa was designed by PAXmommy Jillian so many years ago and has been a babywearer’s favorite ever since! These wraps have been woven by Girasol and will be arriving sometime in December. With all the holiday hub bub, the PAXmoms make no promises but hope to have these beauties in your hands by the first of the New Year!
The weft, weave, & length will be chosen by PAXbaby!

Enjoy a FREE wrap in Rose’s name; happy birthday, baby girl! Twelve years in our arms, and we are so very glad!

**while supplies last, no returns on promotional orders. PAXbaby will not be able to accept returns on any part of your order so please shop wisely.
***Shipping in the States will be free; International winner will pay exact shipping costs
*happy babywearing*

BB8 at

The force is strong with this one!
Babywearing Star Wars fans will instantly recognize PAXbaby’s ode to BB8!! This iconic color palette can only be one droid, and now YOU can enjoy your own #disneybound wrap as well! PAXmommy Jillian has been wearing her BB8 for a few months now, but she’s ready to share! Stalking can start NOW!!!


Created for PAXmommy Jillian and her Baby 8 who was born much too early in May 2016, this beautiful wrap signifies so much more than a Star Wars character, but BB8 holds a special place in our hearts as the nickname for our wee Baby Blaise! Designed and woven originally by Ohana Wovens in the USA, you can wrap your baby in a PAXexclusive BB8 Girasol by committing to our pre order, being patient, and babywearing to your Star Wars lover’s content once our order arrives from Girasol’s looms! These are your Girasol pre-order options which include wraps in sizes 2-8, yardage, or Girasol ring slings all woven by hand by Girasol in twill weave and black weft! This is an amazing opportunity to own an Ohana design woven by Girasol!


There is a BB8 for everyone; PAXbaby, you’re my only hope! This beautiful design is exclusive to PAXbaby and Ohana Handwovens and available as a Girasol ONLY with PAXbaby,com, your #disneybound babywearing headquarters!



*happy babywearing*



The mastermind and artist behind the sewing machine is Edit who has carefully crafted hundreds and thousands of baby carriers over her years in business. Join the very few babywearers who have been able to wear their baby in a PAXexclusive Bamberoo which feature one of our very special woven wraps, designed and created specially for and brought to life by Bamberoo. It is with greatest pleasure that we accept your ISO requests for this gorgeous array of buckle carriers, and with even more glee that PAXbaby’s ISO Angel will fly tonight, choosing lucky winners to purchase our beautiful buckle carriers and wear their baby happily ever after in an almost one of a kind hand sewn masterpiece!!!

No need to have the fastest fingers, no need to refresh all the live long day! By  filling out the form below between 11:00am and 3:00 pm PST Tuesday November 8th; this enters you into our ISO Angel stocking, which is a random draw to select a winner to purchase. You can choose exactly which carrier you’d like to buy if given the chance or you can let us choose one for you!
Have fun and don’t forget that all this is in the name of good babywearing fun!

Good luck!
*happy babywearing*

Love, the PAXmoms


Happy birthday, PAXbaby!
Today PAXbaby is celebrating NINE YEARS of rainbow sunshine, perky unicorns, and an over the top imagination that has been expressed in thousands of creative baby carriers from handwoven wraps to soft structured carriers! Today we reminisce on the years of planning and designing and dreaming that has brought forth a legacy of brightness so vast that we are having trouble cataloging it all! Each custom textile has been a beauty; it’s hard to choose a favorite from all these amazing carriers such as our iconic Double Rainbow, gorgeous Vice Versa, Once Upon a Tula (1, 2, 3, and 4!), Sally and her counterpart, Jack… Thank you to everyone who has made PAXbaby the epitome of success; we appreciate YOU and are so grateful for your love & support on this magical journey that has made so many babies happy.
With gratitude, the PAXmoms!
Read more about PAXmommy Jillian’s humble beginnings here at the PAXblog!
*happy babywearing*

9 years ago….

9 years ago I was a mom to 4 adorable kids ages 4, 2, 2 and almost 1. I was on an adventure that, looking back on it, was absolutely impossible! PAXdaddy was working as a full time stained glass artist at the time, and I was a full time mom. My time was spent driving to the park, changing diapers, feeding, cleaning up, grocery shopping… you know how life goes with little kids! Every day was just another variation on the chaos and mess that toddlerhood brings multiplied by FOUR! The only way that I could handle everything with the grace that I  had was from babywearing. And praying a lot. But having been a babyworn baby and then starting my parenting career with a homemade ring sling, babywearing was in my blood! Once my fourth baby was 7 months old, I realized I needed something more effective than the hand me down ring slings I’d used for my “twin” daughters and the Snugli that had been mine as a baby. The Babywearer swept me in with its fancy initials and its glittering ads and its ability to connect me to other REAL LIFE moms like myself! I delved in with the question “Which carrier would be better for my baby and I : an Ergo, a Blue Kangaroo, or a Beco 4g?” Of course the veteran admins there at TBW had answered this very question a million times so they advised me to search the page for my own answers. Sheepishly, I followed their directions and discovered that the manufacturer of Beco lived in my hometown in Southern California, and when I emailed in, Gabby, the owner, replied herself. She’d be happy to meet with me, fit a carrier to my baby and I, and by the way, would I like some of her wool diapers that she was giving away. I was astounded. Blown away! I had NEVER met this woman and yet, here she was giving me goodies and advice! I ran, not walked, to Beco headquarters, then in Costa Mesa CA, and proceeded to have an amazing afternoon with Gabby and Duke, her son. I’m sure she doesn’t recall that fateful day, but it is one of my favorite memories of my adult life because had I not contacted Beco, and had Gabby not been so friendly, I may have purchased a different carrier and my story would be completely different.


Given the fact that Gabby spent an entire afternoon with my baby, Koko, and I, I felt naturally obligated to purchase a Beco from her. Just kidding, as soon as she fit us into the adorable Beco 4G, I was in love. His little body was weightless, both shoulders were equally supported, and perhaps most importantly to the story, this carrier was CUTE! I bought “Spa Damask,” a print that was rather subdued in my opinion, but PAXdaddy said he would wear it too. (The one I lusted after was called Carnival Bloom. Fun fact, the stools and accessories in my current kitchen are made from this iconic Michael Miller fabric.) I proudly showed off my new carrier to my other baby mama friends at home in Santa Barbara and was overwhelmed by requests that I help my friends find one for their own baby! After I referred quite a few friends back to Beco, someone mentioned that I should really sell these myself. LIGHT BULB MOMENT! Why not, I asked myself, it won’t be any more than a mere hobby! Gabby told me to set myself up with a business license and she’d be happy to sell my a minimum quantity of Beco carriers, 9 in total including the one I’d already bought. I was very pleased with this idea, but could not for the life of me think of the PERFECT name!  One name that didn’t make the cut was The 4 Bees for my current 4 children, soon discarded since we knew we wanted more children and soon, but after much hemming and hawing, my genius husband said one night, what do you want babies to FEEL in the carrier that you sell. I said, “PEACE!” And so, PAXbaby, everything you need for a peaceful baby, was born! PAX means PEACE in Latin, and I quickly had fallen down the rabbit hole and decided to sell a little of EVERYTHING!
9 carriers became 20. 20 became 50, and so my career as a small business owner (for the second time in my relatively short life at 24 years old) took off! The allure of cloth diapers convinced me to add a great number of manufacturers to our line up including custom designs. The appeal of safe feeding supplies brought a plethora of BPA free options including Klean Kanteens and bento boxes. Organic baby clothes, blankets, and wooden toys soon showed up as part of our array of options. Having a tiny store front in Santa Barbara was wonderful, but when we decided to move back to Southern California, the option of seeing customers in my own space wasn’t viable. became a .com only; I filled that social void with bi-weekly and monthly PAXplaydates where I could interact with local babywearers from San Diego up to Los Angeles and also on our family road trips! The change has been good for me though. I have been able to focus on my first love which is textile design, and by paring down the other extraneous items that had been on our shelves, PAXbaby is truly a babywearer’s dream, filled with wraps and carriers conceived of my dreams and born through the hard work of my team of PAXmoms! I am truly so grateful for your support over these 9 years.
Thank you for allowing me to stay at home with my children, as a WAHM and now as a homeschooling mommy too! I am so blessed by you and your love!
With all my heart, jillian

*happy babywearing*


***Please take caution when reading this heartfelt post; you may be triggered if you have been affected by pregnancy loss.

Now that you have tried to make a baby, there’s the endless two week wait while you wrestle with the inner turmoil and emotional personal disputes not limited to “was now the right time?” “should we have waited?” “am I ready?” “are WE ready?” “what will I do if we are pregnant?” “what will I do if we’re NOT pregnant.” For me, having lost our eighth baby in May but knowing for 21 days before I started bleeding that the early birth was imminent, my current wait for my period to start is causing PTSD style flashbacks. A few months ago I was hanging onto each moment with my baby and trying not to lose my mind in grief. Here I am today, hoping for the best, but expecting nothing, and reliving each day of my loss while I carefully check my toilet paper (ok, you got me! family cloth!) for a trace of blood or ANY clue as to why I am now 2 days late without a positive on my pregnancy tests. Speaking of which, I ordered a stack of 100 cheapies from Amazon when we decided that September would be our first TRY month! I love the cheap sticks because I can pee away without worrying about the money; I limited myself to 1 a day but quickly progressed to 2. Given the fact that I am crying at the latest episode of This Is Us, craving eggs (I’m a VEGAN!), and I suddenly think that coffee tastes gross, I want to believe that I am pregnant and my HCG levels just aren’t caught up yet. But on the other hand, I have become a public crier since losing my Blaise in May, my friend Guin has been hooking us up with amazing happy eggs from her backyard chickens, and at PAXretreat I was treated to amazing cappuccino every day so ordinary coffee is kind of gross in comparison. So maybe these aren’t symptoms as much as they are just part of being me.


The thoughts that go through my mind every time I step into the bathroom to pee on ANOTHER stick are :
You just bribed your other kids to stay downstairs with some gluten free cookies and a science based show on Netflix so that you could go in the bathroom and cry. This is a new low.

You can’t even go to the bathroom without at least one child sitting in your lap. How will you fit your belly in here too??

If you pee on your hand one more time while aiming for the pee stick….

And my personal favorite, your baby is finally sleeping through the night and 100% potty trained except the occasional accident. WHY ON EARTH would you want to start all over?

But the thoughts that go through my mind each time I pee on another stick and see that negative sticking its tongue out at me are :
You have peed on 10 sticks in the last 3 days; just wait and see.

You are the most impatient person I know.

You need to drink more water; your pee isn’t clear!

You need to calm down, and focus on the 7 little blessings waiting for you downstairs, covered with cookie crumbs and filled with new Science facts to share with you.

You need to accept with grace whatever happens this month.

Next month is another cycle, another chance for the baby that YOU KNOW you are meant to hold in your arms.

But let me tell you, the wait is so stressful, and the associations I can give every odd event make my emotions swing wildly within minutes. I took 2 naps yesterday; I MUST be pregnant! I don’t feel like eating; I MUST NOT be pregnant! My breasts hurt; I MUST be pregnant! I have high highs and low lows like PMS; I MUST NOT be pregnant! My belly is sticking out even though I’m not eating much and exercising daily; I MUST be pregnant!


Now add to this emotional rollercoaster the guilt that I feel for closing the story of my 8th baby, and wanting to try again for #9. Did I give her tiny life enough respect. Have I taught the kids well that though they never got to meet their baby sister, she counts as one of their siblings. Was I a good enough mom to my Blaise during our 15 weeks together.  Am I ready to share my love with someone new.  Am I ready to be pregnant again, count the weeks again, and hold my breath until we pass that 15 week mark when I gave birth last. Will my body be ready in 36ish weeks to be healthy, and my mind to be whole and focused and not remembering the pain and suffering that a year beforehand brought me to my hardest birth. Can I give a new baby the grace to not replace my Blaise, but to be another love of my life, not detracting from my previous experience, but adding a new bud to the beautiful bouquet of lives, deaths, and memories that I hold in my heart.

Am I strong enough? Am I mom enough? Time will tell.

Milk sharing aka wetnursing



Milk sharing aka wet nursing or cross-nursing is really common among my group of friends! Many of us have nursed each other’s babies, toddlers, and kids out of necessity or even just to boost our little ones’ immune strength! It’s a truly wonderful way to bond with your most cherished friends; my kids now have milk siblings. Their milk mamas have shared the bond of physical closeness as well as the antibodies that comes from one’s own milk. I can’t think of a more perfect way to show love as a mommy friend!

It’s sad but true that for many years, I felt tethered to my babies who were each exclusively breastfeed for almost 12 months. Until I found my community here in Southern California, I couldn’t physically leave my children without a back up feeding source but once I found my village, I allowed myself to leave my young baby in the care of dear friends who would breastfeed her as needed. My plight of not bottle training and yet desperately needing to go on a date with my husband was solved with one simple statement. “Please feed her when she seems hungry!” Suddenly, our options widened, and PAXdaddy and I have enjoyed quite a few dates since the birth of our daughter in 2013 by leaving she and our 6 older children with friends as well as having provided childcare for other friends wanting to escape the clutches of their little milk monster for a few hours!


I myself have been able to feed many of my friends’ babies for a plethora of reasons! I was very proud to put my lactating breasts to work one night when I was a doula at a friend’s birth. She had a trauma shortly after delivering her baby so I nursed her newborn through the night while also taking care of my own sweet 5 month old baby. The next morning I put out a call for help, and an army of mutual friends arrived to help with the new baby and also to keep baby’s tummy full of 100% breastmilk! I still marvel at that amazing week and how a group of women could come together to keep one little baby well nourished, clean, comforted while her mommy was under the weather.

At 32 months old, my daughter, Cate, was still breastfeeding and enjoying the mommy cuddles that it’s hard to find in a large busy family! When our 8th baby, Blaise, was born at just 15 weeks, my milk dried up leaving Cate high and dry. Luckily for her, an entire herd of lactating friends came during the month of May to care for me, my husband, and my children as I recovered from the loss of our beloved baby. She nursed from several mothers over the course of the month and now refers to one of our closest friends as “Mama Milk.” I am so grateful to each and every friend who offered to breastfeed my sweet girl. It means so much to me and made the transition to being a non-lactating mother much easier and less emotional.



At PAXretreat last week, PAXfriend Evonne had a little snuggle time with #toddlerCate. My lovie was over the moon with the fresh milk, and Evonne was happy to fill her little tummy with liquid gold. I cannot wait to have another baby, have my milk come in, and be able to feed someone else’s baby straight from the tap!



*happy breastfeeding*



What brings you JOY


What brings you JOY?

No matter how tiny, we’d love to hear it! Is it that first sip of coffee in the morning? The tiny breaths of a baby sleeping on your chest? A solo Target trip?

Sometimes as a caregiver, we get so caught up in making everyone else happy that we forget to take care of ourselves, too. How does that saying go?
“You can’t pour from an empty cup”
Well, it is true.
Sometimes all we need is to take a step back, breathe and focus on one calming, joy-filled moment just for ourselves.
Now, that moment is not going to look the same for everyone.
For some, that moment may even be at midnight when the entire house is silent: a hot, essential oil filled bath without interruption.
For others, that could be driving to school pick up with the radio blasting and the windows down.
A joyful moment, doesn’t necessarily mean you have to spend money, either.
Relish in the leaves changing color, splashing in the puddles, taking one extra moment to lay in bed before the kids jump on you, choosing the comfy clothes…

Whatever it may be, please try to challenge yourself this week to find the joy in the chaotic.
Get back to us and tell us what you did! <3


The PAXmoms


*happy babywearing*



Sally Stitches is back!

Wear during the holidays or all year round if you dare, Sally is our exclusive that we’ve been DYING to share with you! Sally is the brainchild of our wonderful designer at QuasiCo Creative and PAXmommy Jillian, who wanted a Nightmare Before Christmas themed wrap that would be the ultimate #disneybound wrap! Here is our Sally complete with eerie stripes, crazy swirls, tiny dots, scary zippers, and the quintessential stitch lines!!! Sally features a unique color palette that screams NIGHTMARE and will frighten you with her perfection!

Sally is 100% Cotton, manufactured in Germany, and shipping from Southern California.

These KoKaDi wraps are currently on their way from Germany, which as you may or may not know from previous experience could be a couple weeks long journey or take as long as five or six weeks! So with that being said, please join the PAXmoms as we host a private stocking JUST for you!!!!

*happy babywearing*


Read Aloud with The BFG


Our newest adventure in #readaloudrevival is Roald Dahl’s The BFG in which the Giants drink an amazing beverage called Frobscottle.  I challenged each of the kids to design their own magical elixir! The results were varied, but everyone stated that their concoction was “rare!” Some were tasty, some not, and three of them had the magical ability to fill you up for the whole day; wouldn’t that come in handy! My focus with the older kids this year is GRAMMAR, so they each wrote a paragraph about their imaginary beverage. This challenged a couple of them to think outside their usual “box,” and drew out the sillies from the others who love to get creative in their writing! I love watching their vocabulary improving daily as well as their use of interesting sentence structure!
#homeschool #homeschooling #learnathome #secondgenerationhomeschooler

*happy babywearing*