Waiting

Waiting

PAXbaby.com ***Please take caution when reading this heartfelt post; you may be triggered if you have been affected by pregnancy loss. PAXbaby.com Now that you have tried to make a baby, there’s the endless two week wait while you wrestle with the inner turmoil... Read More
PAXmommy Mel’s loss

PAXmommy Mel’s loss

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com “This should be my belly right now. I know five babies was not in our “plan” but now that #5 is no longer here, the pain of the loss runs deep. I never knew how much miscarriage can mess with your hormones, your mind, your... Read More
Three months

Three months

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com I’m feeling especially grateful tonight for friends near and far who’ve held my hand, rubbed my back, and taught me how to put one foot in front of the other again! It’s been 3 months since I was pregnant last, and not a day... Read More
Hormones & Breastfeeding

Hormones & Breastfeeding

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com When I was miscarrying our eighth baby, breastfeeding helped my body & hormones regulate. By this point in my pregnancy, my milk was drying up quickly, but #toddlercate was happy to nurse and help her mama feel better! #oxytocin... Read More
A tiny placenta print

A tiny placenta print

How does one measure love? Certainly not based on the size of a placenta, but in my case, it’s all I have left of my baby. 15 weeks in my belly, 8 weeks in heaven; my heart will never be whole again but I wouldn’t give back this time for the world. paxbaby... Read More
Different

Different

To those who aren’t who they want to be.What they want to be. Where they want be. How they want to be. To those who envisioned their life differently. In a different location perhaps. In a different state of mind. In a different physical body. To all those who... Read More
*graphic birth story*

*graphic birth story*

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com *graphic birth story* Yesterday morning I finished Blaise’s pregnancy with the intense birth of my placenta. What I endured last Saturday in San Diego was the birthing of our baby’s sac and cord. It was deflated and withered just... Read More
Loss.

Loss.

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com   PAxbaby.com   Our sweet family buried a tiny placenta this afternoon; Baby Blaise will be remembered by this beautiful Magnolia tree and the prayers said this afternoon by each of her family members. We have loved and will continue to love... Read More
Rainbow

Rainbow

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com paxbaby From PAXmommy Jillian: “To my friends… you are amazing. Your hearts have poured love over our family, and so many prayers were said for our sweet baby. I could feel your strength and thank you for it, because it was a hard... Read More
BB8 & Loss

BB8 & Loss

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com A message from PAXmommy Jillian and PAXdaddy Aaron: “Aaron and I had to give our little herd the most difficult news last night. Telling them that their new baby has gone to Heaven and they will not be holding a sweet new person in their... Read More
National Fertility Awareness

National Fertility Awareness

PAXbaby.com PAXbaby.com Yesterday  kicked off National Infertility Awareness Week 2016. The theme this year is #StartAsking. As words aren’t always adequate, a simple heart will do. For each loss, you can share a blue heart, if you’re currently still walking this... Read More